life suck

same as title.
life really suck
full of sadness.
full of madness.
full of disappointed..
full of desperate..

it force u to lean down..wave ur white flag toward him.
will u surrender?

so do i..
what i gonna do?
life suck
life freaking suck..

u can just shrug u shoulder as it is not ur business.u dont care about it.
but as an alert..
remember..life always suck.

doubt

sometimes, i curious that what position am i in ur heart?
stranger?...or sort of?

how childish am i? i used to be think of im the one who know you well..
i thought im the one u will treat me as a treasure like u promised..
then..u break it..
u always be..

sometimes i feel...r u enjoying to letting me down?
dont u feel sympathy?
i dint do anything wrong...

sometimes...im envy to somebody that they used to be happy always.have their good life.
family always as a haven for them.
still childish. immature. thought that families still backing up for them. they still have opportunity to crazy to mess up.
they have couples of opportunity to waste their life..but they are happy..

i hope i have the chance to be them.
but i dint have.
i nid to face bunch of matters that both u two brings to me..
desperately..

the thing that i most hated was..
ppl always think that im the happiness gurl, rich parents, big houses.
but im not.
im just an ordinary gurl..
then turn out to be an emo gurl.

families problems...
financial problems..
almost brought by parents..
families stand for crisis but not haven for me..

schmuck..
do u think im enough strength to bear all the messes that u done?
u such an irresponsible guy.
im just 18 age.
u ruin my teenage life.
u always yell at me.
force me to clean the mess that u cause.
u teach me the reality.

even i beg u for a car..
just a simply request.
u threatened me several times..
have u treat me as ur daughter?

i really hate u.
hated u most but loved u most..
i nearly crazy..
u drive me crazy.
i tried to push these sad feelings away..
but i cant..
i nearly crazy..
desperate..
mercy..
fed up..
frustrated..
disappointed..

end up a life seems is a good way. somebody have courage to do while somebody not.
guess which type am i?
coward?
i dont dare as im a coward.
then alternative way is keep on enjoy ur suck life.
and begging will have an angel to save u from abyss..?