letter for Jean

i think i am a bit boring oni, it keeps my mind free so that i keep on thinking on him again..
i thought i had forgotten him already..but tis few days he came into my mind again..
maybe i quite nervous and stress on my education and for the nearly final term, hope that i can concentrate into my study and start a new life by learning how to live more better without waste my time thinking on the one who are meaningless for me.

arghh....scared lah....final term aldy right in the conner.. although i got done some preparation but i still thinking of it still not sufficient for me to earn a high CGPA.
english is my weaknesses...i scare the english skill 2 will pull down my grade..
somemore the oral test oso....arghh....i hated most the part!
then my step will more far from the scholarship...
if tis happened.. then i will direct jump from the highest floor from my building or bang the wall of my class directly..

in the last semester..although my grade got 3.0, but i still think about not satisfy..haha.. quite a greedy gurl i am..

hopefully in this semester my cgpa can hit up to 3.5..
pls....Jean..dont let me disappointed ah!
or i'm sure will whack u big big one!!!!

Jean..u nid to noe that there are no excuse for u to get lower grade ady..
now u choose the course that u like and u think u can do it, right?
not same like the form 4 and 5 study ady..
Jean.. if u not working hard and do some sacrifice for ur study, there will be another deepness that u nid to head..
in that time, nobody gonna save u or lend u a hand..
they will just looking u die..
then u nid to terminate ur study and go out to work...
u noe right? with SPM qualification, u just can earn RM 800 per month..

Jean.. keep going!!!
fight for ur future..
dont think about anythings which are not related for ur education else!
keep him away from ur sight, out of ur mind!
just thinking about for ur future!
fight! fight!

either study or die!
either degree holder or SPM cert with RM 800 salary!